Jessie J wept onstage after she announced that she’d had a miscarriage on Wednesday.
Doctors told her, at 33 years old, that she could not feel a beat after Tuesday’s third scan.
Jessie, who was performing at The Hotel Cafe on Wednesday night, said that she felt ‘never more alone’ since losing her baby.
Jessie J was devastated: She broke down onstage in tears after she announced that she’d had a miscarriage.
Speaking to the audience, Jessie said through tears: ‘I decided to have a baby by myself and by a miracle it worked for a little while and yesterday was f*****g s**t.’
‘This year has been hands down the hardest year that I’ve ever had to go through.
« In December 2013, I lost my hearing and was finally diagnosed with Menieres. Then I lost my voice which was f*****g awful. And then I lost my baby. It’s clear that I’m going through this alone.
‘I’ve never felt more alone than I have felt in the past week.’
After her third scan, doctors told the 33-year-old singer that she could not feel a beat.
“I’m all around the place”: Jessie, who was performing at The Hotel Cafe on Wednesday, stated that she felt more alone after losing her first child.
Devastating. The singer shared her news on Instagram Wednesday night. She had just received word that her baby had died after she went for her third scan.
Jessie stated that in 2014 she could not have naturally born children. She said on stage at the time: ‘I was told four years ago that I can’t ever have children.
‘I don’t tell you guys for sympathy because I’m one of millions of women and men that have gone through this and will go through this.’
Jessie, who had just announced that she was having a miscarriage within hours, took the stage and informed fans she’s all over town as she began the two-hour show.
Tragic: Speaking to the audience, Jessie said through tears: ‘I decided to have a baby by myself and by a miracle it worked for a little while and yesterday was f*****g s**t’
Hurting: ‘I’ve never felt more alone than I have felt in the past week,’ Jessie said
She was struggling: At the beginning of the show, she was wearing a black coat as she spoke out to the crowd about her insecurity over how fat she is.
Good evening, everyone. I’m going to play some music make it even more f******g emotional,’ she said.
Please be there for me tonight. Each person in this room has a story to tell and is going through something right now.
‘Forgive me I’m all over the place in my life and I’m not going to pretend I’m not so Price Tag might seem a little sadder than usual but I’ll do my f******g best.
‘I’m in the thick of it in this moment and that’s the reason why I’m here because there isn’t anything in life which helps me understand myself more than this.
“I did not know what I would experience. My heart feels like I’m running, but I’m not.’
Honest: ‘Forgive me I’m all over the place in my life and I’m not going to pretend I’m not so Price Tag might seem a little sadder than usual but I’ll do my f******g best’
Hurt: ‘I’m in the thick of it in this moment and that’s the reason why I’m here because there isn’t anything in life which helps me understand myself more than this,’ the songstress added
Jessie put on a brave front: She used her senses of humor to make it through the set
‘I’m in quite a bit of pain,’ Jessie added, before she told the audience she felt insecure because she was ‘swollen’ as she removed her plush coat.
Jessie stated earlier in the day that she’d ‘decided’ to have a child on her own after having revealed in October her split with Max Pham, her boyfriend for seven months.
Although she said that she was still in shock, the grieving singer decided to sing in Los Angeles on Wednesday night ‘because singing will be my salvation’.
She shared her pain. The singer tried to sing her songs, but was unable because she felt overwhelmed by her emotions.
Whirlwind: The bereaved songstress was in shock and decided that singing would help her.
Infertility problems: Jessie admitted in 2014 that she couldn’t have natural children. She said on stage at the time: ‘I was told four years ago that I can’t ever have children’
Jessie posted the photo with her holding a test for pregnancy along with the following: Jessie said that she was having a good time laughing and asked a friend how they were going to make it through their gig in LA tomorrow without telling all of them I was pregnant.
‘By yesterday afternoon I was dreading the thought of getting through the gig without breaking down…
“After having my 3rd scan done and finding out there was no heartbeat, it felt great. It’s been a great morning. My emotions have become uncontrollable. This may be something I regret. It could be. I don’t really know.
Strong: She said: ‘I lost my baby. It’s clear that my choices in life are not going to change. I am sure I will be fine.
Single life. Jessie stated to her followers that she’d ‘decided’ to have a baby by herself after she revealed in October that Max Pham, her boyfriend of seven months, had left her.
Her words continued, “I chose to have a child on my own.” Because I want it all and because life is too short. Being pregnant was something I never expected. It was also a miracle.
“I am still in shock. The sadness is overwhelming. But, I know that I am strong and that I will make it through.
“I’m also aware that this is not the only pain experienced by millions of women across the globe. Both those I know and those I don’t feel connected with me.
“It is the most lonely feeling in all of the universe. Therefore, LA I am seeing you tonight.
“I might crack fewer jokes, but my heart and soul will still be there.”
Sweet: Jessie was given a hug after her performance
Thumbs up! The singer displayed a strong face to her audience as she sang.