Ekaterina Pereverzeva struggles to end her fear of war as large numbers of Russian troops mass near her second home, Ukraine.
As we talked in a pub, she stated that ‘any time could be my last peaceful moment’. “We could all be here sipping a beer as the shelling begins, not knowing that my loved ones might be going to their final days.”
The 27-year-old tries not to think about the gathering storm clouds – but she knows all too well how life, families and friendships can be instantly shattered by malevolent Russian president Vladimir Putin.
For she was forced to leave another Ukrainian city after it was seized by Kremlin stooges – and is terrified history will repeat itself after she has worked so hard to create a new life in Kharkiv.
Ekaterina, who fled Donetsk and set up an arts-and-human rights website, says, “I try to not think these thoughts. To calm my fears.
Ekaterina Peeverzeva (above), 27-year-old, is trying to put an end to her fears of being a victim of the Russian invasion of Ukraine.
“But it’s always fearful with this escalation in hostilities. Because I am a victim of the effects, I can see how Putin causes wars. My experiences have taught me to accept my fears.
The thoughtful and elfin woman screams when Putin is mentioned.
She said, “I’d like him to be dead.” “Not just Putin, but also all those who gave orders for the shooting to begin and to declare war.” All of them should be executed.
In all of the talk about an invasion, we forget that Ukraine is in conflict with its hostile neighbour since 2008 when Russian-backed separatists overthrew two of its self-proclaimed republics in Donetsk or Luhansk.
This was Putin’s brutal response – along with the capture of Crimea – to pro-democracy protests that ousted his ally in the Ukrainian capital Kiev.
Ekaterina tries not to think about the gathering storm clouds – but she knows all too well how life, families and friendships can be instantly shattered by malevolent Russian president Vladimir Putin. After another Ukrainian city was taken by Kremlin stooges, she had to flee. (Above, Ukrainian soldiers at a check-point in Donetsk on Friday)
Kremlin intervention led to the deaths of 14,000 people and the displacement of 2.6 millions, such as Ekaterina.
While the war on Ukraine’s east flank is largely ignored outside of the country, it has become a recurring theme in the national consciousness.
However, if Putin launches a large-scale invasion of Ukraine, it would be very visible and felt well beyond Ukraine.
Oleksii Reznikov (Ukraine’s Minister for Defence) stated that a major war could plunge Europe into crisis.
“The appearance suddenly of up to three million Ukrainian refugees fleeing Russian Invasion would be one of the major problems facing European society.”
Moscow claims its troops are not in the Donbas republics. However, Olena Znatkova was one of the women who saw the internal takeover. In her role as a high-ranking local government official responsible for seven universities, Znatkova watched with dismay how colleagues accepted Putin’s false propaganda about Ukraine’s ‘threat. The beliefs of pro-democracy protests resonated with her, she said.
Tom Tugendhat MP (chairman of the Commons Foreign Affairs Committee), echoes his view and visited the country last Wednesday.
“We have seen numerous Ukrainians expelled from their eastern homes, as well as Russia’s allies Belarus weaponising migrants towards Nato countries such as Poland or Lithuania,” he stated. It is not difficult to wonder how many additional people Moscow plans on driving over the frontier into Europe.
An estimated 1.5 million Ukrainians are internally displaced in Ukraine, a nation with 44 million inhabitants. Others have migrated to Russia and other parts of Europe.
However, aid organizations believe that this number may be much greater because so many immigrants have not registered to become citizens after moving in with relatives and friends.
Most remained in Russian-speaking eastern parts of Ukraine, such as Kharkiv – areas where there are fears Putin might use his Special Forces to try to trigger some kind of provocation as an excuse to send tanks over the border.
Ekaterina’s post perfectly illustrates the complexity of identity issues and interwoven ties among communities in this region of eastern Europe.
She was born in Russia to Ukrainian parents.
One Ukrainian paratrooper can be seen on Friday stationed near Stanytsia Luhanska in Luhansk, Ukraine
In her teen years, she moved to Donetsk and declared that she was Ukrainian. After pro-democracy protests resulted in the arrival of Russian covert troops, she had to leave her home and her brother behind.
They were then operating, and she witnessed conflict between them in Donetsk.
Ekaterina remembers hearing radio broadcasts of shots and missiles being fired at the airport.
Most of her school and university friends have also left – except for one who now heads the Donetsk regime’s youth party.
According to her, ‘He’s in charge of brainwashing the children and telling them lies about Putin as their ally. As many families fleeing displacement, theirs went home with very little.
Only one-eighth of the people who fled are currently in permanent housing. This is because they struggle to rebuild their lives after losing their homes and work.
Ekaterina stated that she had never spoken about Donetsk until recent times to ease the exile pain. She had to leave our conversation to cry in silence on the toilet, even though she was able to speak clearly.
A woman claimed that her husband had been tortured by separatists and beat her. This led to her divorce.
The third woman said her daughter needed mental health help.
Kharkiv (the former capital of Ukraine) is only 30 minutes from the Russian border. There are approximately 180,000 internally displaced persons. Many are scared by Kremlin military build-ups so close to new homes.
Alina Foklina (above), 38 is mentally making a list with a few possessions she will grab in case her daughter has to run again. According to her, “Putin doesn’t look like a rational person.” ‘I feel tense all the time – as if I want to curl up on the floor like a child’
People who fled the conflict feel anxious. People say they lost Donetsk or Luhansk. We can’t lose Kharkiv,” Eugenia Levinshtein is the manager of Ukrainian Borders. This charity provides psychological and financial support to those who have been displaced.
She added: ‘These are people who lost all their property – sometimes family members – and started life from scratch in a new city without any help from the state. It is very frightening to imagine that their new lives could soon be destroyed.
With funds coming from overseas partners, the charity will be able to purchase vehicles and transport people in crisis. Eugenia explained that the charity is preparing for the worst case scenario.
Alina Foklina (38), mentally plans to take a list with her possessions in case she is forced to leave again. According to her, “Putin doesn’t look like a rational person.” ‘I feel tense all the time – as if I want to curl up on the floor like a child.’
After joining pro-democracy demonstrations in small groups with friends, Alina was forced to flee Stahanov (a Luhansk town) after waving the blue and yellow flags of Ukraine near Lenin’s statue.
‘I wanted to keep the country united and become European – less corrupt, more open,’ she said. They were first met with jeers by pro-Russians. Then, there was violence.
Ekaterina gets agitated at mentions of Putin’s names. Ekaterina says that she would love for him to be dead. “Not just Putin, but also all those who gave orders for the shooting to begin and to declare war.” They all should die.
She and her other friends were attacked on the streets. Their cars also suffered damage. Her boyfriend was abducted and tortured in the basement. In his garage, one man was killed.
After the regional referendum on self-rule was widely discredited, Alina fled. ‘In our town, there was our small group of pro-Ukrainians, a slightly bigger group of pro-Russians – but most just wanted their lives to carry on with no warfare.’
It was heartbreaking to flee the town where she grew up, went to school and built a car-painting business – but she believed it would be for just a fortnight until the tensions cooled. “We only had one suitcase, with some summer clothes.
She has never returned – having discovered that she had been sentenced to death for participating in protests. Her father was also a separatist sympathizer and she has never spoken to her since.
For her, life in Kharkiv has been a struggle – relying on piecemeal work, moving apartments several times, unable to visit dying friends and seeing her teenage daughter suffer mental health problems that led to hospitalisation last year.
Alina isn’t worried about regretting anything, even though I asked her if she has any thoughts for the future. She said that if she watches the news, or looks at pictures of Russian military equipment it makes her feel like her whole body is again in danger.
Moscow says its troops have not been sent to the Donbas republics. However, Olena Zatkova is one of the few women who saw the invasion from inside.
In her role as a high ranking local government official, overseeing seven universities she was dismayed at the way colleagues accepted Putin’s false propaganda about Ukraine’s ‘threat. The beliefs expressed by the protesters for democracy’resonated with’ her.
“It was an awakening for me that people took to the streets in order to make a difference, to create more freedom and to open the country up to them.
But most colleagues disagreed. The order was given to her that universities stop such demonstrations and not hoist their national flag.
Olena was presented with a loyalty pledge to the new republic. Knowing that her refusal to sign it would make her an enemy, she fled to hide at the home of her parents.
Their house was three miles from the Russian border, so she saw Kremlin tanks roll past – then decided to escape after the fighting intensified and debris from a downed Ukrainian aircraft landed on their property. Olena (50) said that it seemed like there were fighting all around and that everything was on fire.
“I believed we all could die.” “So I left and said goodbye.
They eventually made it to Kharkiv after she gave up all her possessions, except for her passport.
Since then, this civil servant – who once owned a three-bedroom home in Luhansk – has stayed at friends’ flats and university dormitories with her daughter, relying on donated clothes and eating student meals.
She has also helped to move approximately 1,500 people, as well as seven Luhansk universities, back into Ukraine.
While stocking up in coffee, water and tobacco at her office, she is preparing for another conflict. She tells me defiantly that she has started a new lifestyle here, moved all the people she knows, and will never leave.
Instead of being afraid she said, “I feel angry very angry. Initialy, I was emotional. However, now I am emotionally depleted.
However, when I inquire about Putin from her, this middle-aged, gentle bureaucrat replies, “I hope that he dies.”
Such words express the anguish of their silent suffering – along with the pain that their traumas are being stoked again by the sabre-rattling thug in the Kremlin.
